damn i hate to go back to tt hellhole tml.
finally this week is over.
it seems so long and hard to pass the time away, considering tt right now i'm only shredding paper everyday.
but the real difficult time is whenever i'm alone ... those thoughts keep coming back..
i'm going crazy and mad soon.
today i tink i overreacted by fiercely answering a normal qn posed by my mom....yep i noe i'm like super overboard by doing tt but i really din wanna do it de...
i'm really losing control. big control of myself.
and y i always seem to feel tt alot of ppl are looking at mi?
whenever i'm walking i always see shadows moving at the corner of my eye...
i'm v scared..v v scared.
these days in camp...time seems to crawl to almost as if it stop.
just got a green light to go for SAF counselling sessions starting next week.
OMG i really wanna pull through tis period..din noe it will be so hard.
thanks to all the people who kept encouraging me to move forward and all..i will do my best for everyth.
i really need strength.
please, let a miracle happen to me.
time seems to crawl around mi now.
someone save me from myself.
i dun wanna think about all those things anymore.
get out!
i realy want myself to pull through this period.
this is gonna be a v v trying period for me. i'm gonna pull through this period. i will, and i must.
<3 crab bee hoon.
i wan to eat candy floss frm the clouds
medication as well as a referal letter to see a doc.....
WOW....
screwed.
i feel like committing suicide...
i hate my life now....
2 NSFs already died..let mi be the 3rd.
please be true for once...
dun hide it frm mi tt i appear as a new guy and all.....ok its fine to be ostrocised..
but there is absolutely no need to say one thing and do another.
its kinda irritating tt i go back to army camp for few days to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
pisses mi off great time sia.....everyday wake up at 530 go for breakfast den go back to bunk sleep till 1230 den go for lunch den g back sleep till 6 go for dinner then go slp...
den next day lo...
BLOODY SHIT TIS KIND OF LIFESTYLE IS GONNA GET MI FRIGGING FAT!!
fuck sia.......army no brain really no brain lor...make mi waste my time der like so blur ass like dat.....HELLO!!!! i hav a life one ok?!?!?!? basket........make mi go army der grow fat.....
